School will be starting in less than 3 days. The old feeling is coming right back at me. Whenever school starts, I feel so scared. The imaginery procedures never fails to haunt me. How I wish I can take it like a pinch of salt but the heart has it's own way. The way which is making me feeling uncomfortable, weak and maybe phobia.
People might envy our school's system whereby every semesters we could have new classmates. Yes, we get to know so many people but as the semester come to an end, all is reduced to zero. I don't know why but I feel that people need to move on. They can't be hanging around you like you hang hangers on the pole. I can understand that hangers needs the pole but not friends, especially if they had another semester to go!
Whenever schools became the topic, it gets never ending. After poly, it's army life. After army, you might ask me where I go. I said continue studying, URGH! You said go to work instead. Ya, what's the point of asking when you already have the answer. My point here is that we are going through a cycle. A human cycle.
The people are so scared of going to the wrong path or cycle and hence they chose the easy way out. I remembered once my teacher told me: "If you don't know where to go, follow the path of education". At that time, I thought it was so true and I was so eager to study.
And as I grew up. I understand that it has nothing to do with choosing but on following. When people say this job can make alot of money, we follow. When government say they giving baby bonus, we give birth. When mum say must get more certificates, we get a whole range of certs (You name it, whoever has it).
What I want to say after all the text above is... I WANT TO LIVE MY OWN LIFE
Now this sounds abit unfair to my parents. They did give me the freedom but why am I complaining. Did you ever feel that you are kind of being forced by friends? Perhaps forced is a strong word. Friends sometimes are like selling insurance to you. They are always so easy to make you buy it because they have a good mouth. You are afraid that if you do not buy it, you missed out the benefits.
I wore a facade everyday in the hope of not letting others know the truth in me. Everyone has a different personality within that shows a different side. Yes, maybe when I am more of comfortable with the group and I will let out my true inner self. But don't you think it is kind of scary? Like you observed the vast difference from the past to present.
As I typed until this part, lots of thoughts came into my brain altogether. I suddenly couldn't continue on and many people would refer this as lost of words. The feeling is just like how my younger sis couldn't remembered the spelling words that she learned the previous day. She attempts to give up and get 9/10 instead of 10/10.
Just like her, I shouldn't forced my friends if they do not hope to do so. I should be contented and understand that they had tried and we should be more forgiving. If only I could be half as forgiving as I typed. I know myself the best and I always do not forgive people easily.
P/S: Please allow me to do these as I will be going insane if I don't anyhow type some reasoning texts.
Anyway, anyhow, I will be dyeing my hair tomorrow. I hope it turns out as I imagined.
Went over to Mk's house. Since I do not know how to jump the zakum second quest, I need help from Mk. When it comes to jumping quest, I can slam the keyboard whenever I fall from the steps. It is so frustrating to finally get to the last step and all it do is to make you fall down unexpectedly.
You will say get more practice and you will be perfect. That is to practice more jumping quest... But the easiest one is the hardest for me and it never seem like I am going to complete it.
Nevertheless, Mk finished it for me and I was so glad. This will only mean that I will be ready for the Zakum quest on Saturday!
After that, we ate botak jones for lunch/dinner.
I still prefer Aston than botak jones. However, I secretly love the large sausage because it was so nice. A little bit like subway too because of it's vege.
Saturday, 23 Aug
Timothy came over and only pictures could express his true colours...
Look at his FACE! Okay, I know everyone will be saying like, "nothing what, very cute". Seriously, the face, if you were to look carefully, shows a very naughty side of him. You might not know what he did previously and only the one who is there is able to tell you. Yes, I was the one who is there to tell you this. So you better believe me.
Later we helped him change clothing and he was smiling with glee. My sis told me that he loves to be naked. However, we cannot keep him without clothes despite his sexiness, fearing he might catch a cold. Babies are so prone to anything.
As the time nearing 6pm, I couldn't contain my excitement. With each passing moment, I was hand-sweating profusely. Tb came over my house to support me despite the heavy downpour. Yes!, it was my first time Zakum ever!!!
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Yay. I am still excited when I was typing this post. The whole process of zakum was really scary and exciting. I kept shouting and my heart beats faster as I noticed it within. Tb was beside me all along, calming me down but I am on deaf ears.
There was one time in between where I experienced a 2 to 3 seconds lag and people say that singapore won't make it, but we did~ Opps, type wrongly. Should be I made it because I didn't die when I anticipated it to happen. I was at the point of giving up when I anyhow spam my potions button and pray, hoping that it can get through.
Luckily for me, it did went through and I was so glad about it. Never did I play a game that gives me so much hope and shoutings in the room before. When it all ended, I was so relieved and I got my first helm in maple history. My cousin came and saw it. My younger sis entered the room to see what's the fuss about.
After the whole thing, it was about 8pm. Tb and me went to meet mk and hx at JE. We were about to meet them and an ah pek banged into me. Like as if he doesn't have any eyes, he came straight into me and BANG ME, just like that.
He walked past me as if nothing happened and I make some noises about how rude he is. He didn't even turned back to look at me and I don't even expect a word of sorry. Recently, Old people thinks that they are OLD and everything means that they are to be in top priority. Wrong is wrong. There is no such things as you are old and everyone should accept your wrong doings.
If he were to turn around and say sorry or whatever, I would have smile back at him and said something like "it's okay". (with some anger, hidden)
With that said, I hope I banged him hard enough to make him fall and when he falls, HE WILL LOOK AT ME. I will then run away laughing hysterically if he is that sort of person who is so rude.
After meeting up and eat, we walked back to my house for Dai dee session. It was a super suay day for Tb and he ended up losing alot. I shall not reveal how much but he was very good because he didn't lost his temper or any sort. If it was me, I guess I might flip the table or go around biting people's ears or so.
They went home at about 6:30am and I immediately went to sleep without clearing my room.
This is rather scary. My first trip to zoo is at January. My second trip is at July. And the most recent one, which is on Sunday, 16 August. Looks like I am becoming a member of the zoo with the frequent visits.
However, this time there are more people. I need to thank Tb and his mum for the 4 free entry passes to the zoo. I also need to thank Tb for accompanying me to the zoo with my family and relatives. I used the word "accompany" because Tb had to pay for his own tickets.
The story gets abit complicated but I will explained it anyhow. There are 6 people that went to zoo. Namely me, Tb, my mum, my younger sis, my aunt and my cousin. There you go! SIX. clear?
However, the free passes are only for 4 people. HOW?!!! No worries, there are always sacrifices to be made along the way. So the 4 people that will enjoy the free passes are: my mum, my younger sis, my aunt and my cousin. So far so good?
What about the other 2 person? (That is me and Tb) We pay for our own tickets. Luckily, we thought of a way to save some money. Since my younger sis is below the age of 12, we took her out of the free passes team and swap Tb into the free team. (however, he still needs to pay -_-)
With that, we only need to pay $25 for both an adult and child tickets. (wth, the passion card offers ended, no discount!) Okay! hope I didn't mess up your mind with my self-talk.
We walked into the zoo entrance with grace, as if we were some kind of special person. The one who tear tickets greeted us politely and welcome us to zoo. As we step foot into the first part of the entrance, some "kind-hearted" people volunteered to help us take group photos. As I was a frequent visitors of the zoo, I know the tricks of their actions. They were trying to make us buy the photos that they had help us to shoot. It's not compulsory, of course!
We still took the photos anyway but we are not going to redeem them afterwards. Raindrops begin to fall on us and we were like still posing and finding a spot to sit on the bench. Although it is a fake photoshoot, we make sure we were in our best. However, the photographer call us to faster sit down and get ready and attempts to anyhow take a few pictures and call it a day. I bet some of the pictures that he had taken contains sleepy eyes, not ready pose, finding a spot to sit down, scratching nose and avoiding raindrops.
After that, it rained heavily and we had to seek for shelter. Like super suay, haven't seen any animals and it rain already.
This is the first animal bird we saw in the shelter. Hooray! They are super noisy when they talks. They pee when people are trying to take pictures with them. One child attempt to walk under it and almost tio the pee where I wickedly laugh at the side.
Anyway, the rain didn't stop right then and we had to stay put in the shelter for like 25 mins. We ate our supplies that we had brought from outside earlier.
Finally the rain subsided a little and we walked around. To me, everything seems familiar as if I was there yesterday. I was like calling out to them and remembering their names in particular.
Thanks for the patience of reading until this part. I must say that this entry will not contain as much pictures as the previous zoo trips. My pictures and Tb's pictures added up is only about 100 pictures. Many of the pictures are blur.
And Tb! You have a fetish of taking other people's child pictures! SEE!
Some more take until like ma chiam you know them
See!! (Omg, the pony ahem...)
*Note: The pink shirt girl is my younger sis riding on the pony.
These fews kids were unknown to me except the one wearing pink that is riding on the pony. I am left with a few good ones and will be showing later.
As usual, we cannot miss the splash show whereby after the show, we can get a FREE kiss from the seal! 3 times I went to the zoo, 3 times I get kiss by the seal! Despite the stinking saliva that is left on the face after the kissing, I still want it because it's like saying I've been there. If I were to describe the stench, I would say vomit smell? Does that satisfy you?
That's me.
That's my cousin which I asked her to accompany me to get the kiss. Look at the "Si Char Bor" beside my cousin, she is the one that made the picture so blur. Because she kept hurrying us to go and this made Tb to have lesser time to take picture for us. Tb was not able to take my younger sis's picture in time as the time interval was too short. My poor younger sis got kissed on the face but couldn't see her own looks on a photo.
Nevermind, to return back, we had her on a pony ride for $4. Take pictures until mad~
Her, with the signature hand sign.
Up to this point, we hadn't seen many animals except for a few types of monkeys, seal and pony. We were already exhausted with the walking and complaining about the rains. The rain kept pestering us over and over again until it finally rained like there is no tomorrow. Again, we seek shelter but in our hearts, we know it's coming to an end. Zoo trip is about to end without seeing the rest of the animals like lions, tigers, zebras etc.
With that, I left you with some pictures that were taken for the day.
Not very comprehensive but I find these pictures the nicest. Although this zoo trip is not a very successful one as we find ourselves losing the way most of the time. We were very tired and happy.
After that, we took bus 927 back to Chua Chu Kang. As there were lots of people, we chiong and squeeze the other people when we are boarding the bus. In the end, we won because we got seats and these people were so uncivilised. I saw some of them uses the hand to push the ones infront lor. Luckily we didn't let them win or else we will be taken advantage of.
Dinner at food junction. I was surprised that there is Pepper lunch at the food court. I saw the salmon one and immediately set my eyes on it. Super nice. After dinner, we shop around and went home afterwards.
Tb borrowed a car from his uncle and he drove us to vivo for lunch. He came to my house and fetch me and later to Mk house and fetch him. The feeling of having a friend who has a car, ROCKS. Was actually going to watch the "A month of the hungry ghost" which are only shown at GV, Vivo and PS.
Below are some scenes from the movie that makes me want to watch it even more.
After seeing these pictures, I know that temple can be a very scary place. I think this movie might be a very worth watch and meaningful one because we are watching it during the hungry ghost month!
Despite the disappointment, we went to Food Republic to eat. I ordered some kind of Salmon thingy and after eating it, it fills my stomach to like 1 out of 100 only. Like those loading bars whereby they show you the time left for the download to complete. As we were still hungry, we walked around and I saw "you tiao". I was like 10 years never eat "you tiao" before lah.
The "you tiao" was super oily because it has just been fried and brought up from the hot oil. I love the feeling of eating oily stuffs but was afraid that I might lose my voice there after. I quickly bought a bowl of beancurd to soothe my throat abit.
After eating, we went candy empire to buy sweets. I always love the new sweets that the shop sells. And there, I saw the new skittles (sensational).
Do be careful of the chilli strawberry flavour that is present in these packet of sweets. Imagine it for yourself. After that, Tb drove us home.
Saturday, 16 Aug
Tb came over to my house in the morning. Watched scary movie 3 together and it was super funny. Then in the afternoon, my sis came and we went to Kbox together. I was shocked as the tibits has decided to make itself more valuable. The small cup of tibits that is made compulsory in Kbox costs $6 NOW.
The bill came up to $70 plus for a Saturday 4-8pm. After that we met Hx for dinner or we call it desserts because all of us eat desserts except Tb who ate Ban mian. Sis drove us to my house for Dai dee session. Mk joined us soon after we reached home.
As we will be going zoo tomorrow, we did not play till too late. The session end at about 1:30am and I was traumatised at one part of the night. I logged in to maple and someone asked me to do genesis quest together. This was a very rare chance for me and it was at tomorrow whereby I am going zoo.
In the end, I chose Zoo because I had promised them already. This is the end of entry as Zoo part 3 entry will be a seperated one. I still haven't get the full pictures yet.
yay! holiday is here. It's not very long but at least this is the time to rest. Sad to say, I lost my voice today. It's super irritating when you want to speak but couldn't because no voice came out. I had not been resting well for the past few days and I am currently having headache too.
Just as I was without my voice and having headache, I went to jog. Super "siao kia" right? I ran 3 rounds of the stadium and a blink-out feeling occurred. It's the most horrifying feeling that one could feel. It's a mixture of fainting, vomiting and without breathing. It's like reaching the limits of the body and it's complaining to me already.
It takes awhile for it to go away. This is sort of like a punishment for not exercising daily after leaving secondary school. And I guess facing the computer daily would result in the lack of stamina to run. If this continues, I am going to be like those plump people in the 50s or 60s whereby exercise is not even in their dictionary.
And talking about exercising, I should have taken the stairs and that would consider warm-up. Don't take the stairs, nevermind. I still go and stop the lift from going down.(below)
And you can't blame me for being inconsiderate. The other lift was spoiled and I waited super long for the lift to come. I cannot let it go just like that.
Now, imagine the person on the other side, which is at 1st storey, waiting patiently for the lift to arrive.(above) This is of course not the real one and I got it from the net on random purpose. But the message that I want to bring across is that if the 1st storey's person saw that the lift is stuck at a particular storey and he or she decides to take the stairs only to see my shoe bag blocking the lift's door! What is going to happen?
PS: The picture with the lady waiting patiently for the lift was super funny!
But on the other hand, I really missed Timothy. Last friday, I didn't have enough time to play with him when he came over. However, I managed to get some really cute photos of him that I secretly laugh by myself when I looked at it.
He is now learning to crawl. He gets super annoyed when he is tired though. So if he is tired and couldn't turn back by himself, he cry. By the way, I like his pampers backside :)
This one is hip hop image. Cute yellow duckling one though.
CLEAN ARMPITS. FAT STOMACH. STOP STARRING AT THE NIPPLES.
Lastly, violent sleeping pose. The mum(my sis) told me that when she went for scanning test on whether is it a boy or a girl, the doctor said that it is easy to tell because when timothy is in my sis's stomach, it's like this, all stretch out. Can see the "jiao jiao"
Very angry when I sees this especially when i waited in front of the computer at 1300hr and they just absurdly change to 1400hr. I remembered waking up at 1200 noon today and also remembered that there is such a patch today. Thinking that I was lucky to wake up just a few hours before the patch ended, I did all my stuff earlier on. NOW I am left with 1 hour of free time! BLOG LOR.
Recently read a piece of news that are interesting.
Out of 1,000 mums surveyed in April by the Working Mothers Forum (WMF), three in five would say "no, thanks" to having a new bundle of joy in their households, even if they could resolve domestic and work issues. Yet, 86 per cent of these mums agreed that having children was "a bliss".
After reading just this short paragraph of words, an image of my mother face came up. And it's like very dramatic that kind, you know? Like she smiling with someone else, like she playing with water at the swimming pool with my younger sister and I am at the side, silently watching her.
Seriously, I wondered who gave our mother the endurance to juggle between work and family? I mean, not like fathers could not do so but it is usually the mother that is more caring towards the family.
A simple example would be that Timothy always come my house during Friday's evening when my mum got off from work. Timothy's staying period would be from Friday evening to Sunday afternoon. Timothy's stay would mean that my mum is taking care of him for this time being. Sometimes, during the night of Timothy's stay, Mum would wake up in the middle of the night to feed him etc.
Not a long time ago, I asked her...
Me: You like that not tired meh? Mum: Okay lah, but when you see this little naughty boy, all the sacrifices is worth. Mum (Then she went on to say): Besides, I only see him every week. Mum (Then she eh eh want to say): Timothy's mum more tired lor (which is my elder sis)
Not long ago too, my RJ question asked me to watch a youtube video and comment on it.
Strongest Dad in the World [From Sports Illustrated, By Rick Reilly] Eighty-five times he's pushed his disabled son, Rick, 26.2 miles in marathons. Eight times he's not only pushed him 26.2 miles in a wheelchair but also towed him 2.4 miles in a dinghy while swimming and pedaled him 112 miles in a seat on the handlebars--all in the same day.
The video is embedded below for your convenience.
Just the other day, not long ago too, my mum packed my room. I know you all will be saying me like "aiyo, pack room also don't know how to pack yourselves meh?" Being a very lazy beings, my mum came into my room suddenly and begin chanting words of complains. She know that work wouldn't be done even if she kept going. Then she decided to explore my things. I don't know she did it for pleasure or she just want to see the new things in my room.
Everytime she saw something new, she will go "Aiyo~~~!!! what is this?" Then I will at times turn around from my spot to see what thing she is exclaiming about. After awhile, she will stop and I will feel weird. I will go over and see what is she doing. Magical! I moved from my spot! My lazy self had change over something that I am curious about.
Just yesterday again. My mum helped my younger sister to kill a lizard. My younger sister was shouting like as if she saw a cockroach. Believe me, if it was a cockroach back then, it would have been louder.
So, the bottomline of this entry. Be it looking after Timothy, packing my room and even to the extent of killing lizards, it all involves my mum. She is the most important person in my life and I looked up to her.
Went to Meridien Cyberdome with Mk and Tb for lan session. We got there quite early and because we wanted to have seats, we took the middle train from Jurong East to Dobby Ghaut. To conclude, too much sitting is bad for your buttocks. Played from 1030am to 630pm at $12.
We played Dota and maple. Playing maple there was good because you get extra experience point from the designated place, IP bonus. However, when it comes to dinner, it isn't good. The newly opened/renovated eating place was ultra expensive. I ordered fried rice of $5 and it is very little that I had to buy Old Chang Kee afterwards to satisfy my hungry stomach.
Got home and felt a bit sick. Body was warm and it might be the Old chang kee's fault. Too heaty.
Thursday, 31 July
Rejoy! Last day of July. I decided to skip school. Watch Money no enough 2 with Hx and Tb.
I don't know why but I really like this movie. I think it is because all of them had greatly improved in their acting ability. There were times when I was totally immersed into the movie, I felt like crying. The movie was very touching and I usually don't felt this way especially it was a comedy to begin with.
(Above) I like these two casts as most of the touching scenes come from them. Eg: The vomit part, The deduction of driver's license points, The grandmother staying in the toilet and flash back and of course the ending part where by the kind grandmother gave the last O- blood to the grand daughter.
Friday, 1 August
I was warned that the "Gate" opened today. I was warned not to look into the mirror at night. I was warned not to go swimming. I was warned not to go out at night. I was warned not to turn around when I hear my name being called at night.
Basically, a day to be cautious. Whether you believe in it or not, I suggest you should be wary in case you offend. It's always to be safe than sorry. Take it as a pinch of salt and don't stay home all day thinking that it will be safer. This is paranoid behaviour!
*Timothy came to my house before night falls.
I was so overjoyed to see him!
Look at the shirt! It's Friday!
Sexy pose~ It's hair is growing out and it has a very spiky feeling.
Saturday, 2 Aug
Meet up with Tb, Mk, Hx, Sis and Sis's Husband to watch The Mummy Tomb of the Dragon Emperor.
The movie was selling fast. We got there at 7pm and we had to buy the 11pm tickets. We had approximately 4 hours to hang around before the movie starts. Sis drove us to IMM. We meet up with Mk's bro and we had "Wan Zai" for dinner. I ordered the HK seafood baked rice and it was superb.
Then after Wan Zai, we shopped around and drag till 1030pm. While we were on the car, we talked about ghost stories that happened in camps.
The movie was nice and I like the effects in the movie. Although my friends says that the movie is draggy but I do not think so. I personally like the plot and found it rushy instead. So much for my weird reviews.
After the movie, Sis drove them back to my home. We played Dai dee till 630am. I win about $10.
